#126 Are We Alone? (Tufts)
Alone, what does 'alone' really mean. Is it just that no one is around or that we create an imaginary wall around us that no one sees? Sure everyone’s been alone at least once in a life time, but was one really alone? Even though no one is calling, gossiping, eating or going crazy with you; we are not alone. Well, at least we believe it in order to hold each of our souls together so it does not fall apart. However, there are always doubts. We feel lonely. We sometimes need to feel the loneliness. After all, we are only humans.
One lonely day, a new semester begins, while everyone is talking or looking and comparing schedules, I tried to look for my elder sister. Sadly, no matter how hard I tried, she was nowhere to be found. My sister and I are not the best world-best-sisters. We do not talk that much, apart from arguments and fights. I do not know what came over me, I just wanted to see her face (which probably will only get her irritated). Suddenly, something hit me. The reason why I could not find my sister was that she has gone to college. I can no longer irritate her as much or even see her around as much as I used too. I felt somewhat lonely. I regretted the times that were wasted arguing instead of a nice sis-to-sis talk or even cooking together. I needed her to be around. In between classes my friends started noticing that I have not been talking much and on the first day of school too. I did not tell my friends about my feelings and instead hid it; said I felt sick. Later in the evening, I wanted to call my sister, something I have never done before, but I did not know what to say when she picks up the phone. And no way am I telling her that I feel lonely and that I miss having her around. She would just make jokes out of it. At that time I was really clueless.
One lonely day, a new semester begins, while everyone is talking or looking and comparing schedules, I tried to look for my elder sister. Sadly, no matter how hard I tried, she was nowhere to be found. My sister and I are not the best world-best-sisters. We do not talk that much, apart from arguments and fights. I do not know what came over me, I just wanted to see her face (which probably will only get her irritated). Suddenly, something hit me. The reason why I could not find my sister was that she has gone to college. I can no longer irritate her as much or even see her around as much as I used too. I felt somewhat lonely. I regretted the times that were wasted arguing instead of a nice sis-to-sis talk or even cooking together. I needed her to be around. In between classes my friends started noticing that I have not been talking much and on the first day of school too. I did not tell my friends about my feelings and instead hid it; said I felt sick. Later in the evening, I wanted to call my sister, something I have never done before, but I did not know what to say when she picks up the phone. And no way am I telling her that I feel lonely and that I miss having her around. She would just make jokes out of it. At that time I was really clueless.
Now thinking back about this incident (which by the way made me closer to my sister then ever), I have realized that even though my sister might be far away from me, I will always think of her. I will always have my friends around. I do not need a person right next to me to know that I am not alone. No one should ever have to feel or even think that he/she is alone; simply because, we are never alone.
Very nice, especially the middle paragraph!
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